Guess who's watching

Hey everybody, It's Varg's older brother here. I know this somewhat sudden but after stumbling upon her unknown blogger account i had to know what she kept a secret. I mean, I know a girls got her secrets and some privacy that she's like to have respected but C'mon.
She had dreams about ME, and not only dreams but what she described them to be kind of sounded like nightmares...and they're getting pretty frequent to which worries me as well. What also worries me is how she talks about people called "proxies" and talks of some dude called "Slenderman" or "slendy" or "sm" and from what i've read through her blog posts and the wonderful vast ocean of knowledge called the internet, having those baddies in your dreams can only lead to no good. I also think a little family/moral support might actually do her some good. I mean, I'm not saying the rest of you is nothing but chopped liver but still, there's nothing better than good ol' family comfort.Also after reading every post of the blog i don't believe she's being completely honest with all of you, like as in not telling the whole story. Like, how she woke up twice lightly flailing and whimpering. I know it MAY have been possible that she forgotten the dream(or is to stubborn to say what it was)but she could have at least told you all what happened for some comfort or any advice that could have possibly been given(i don't know what the hell kind of advice that would be but what do i know).
So i decided if she's gonna give you slice you might as well have the whole cake.
After all, it's not nice to be a little greedy now is it?

Well its been a while

Hello there, sorry about the small absence. I just got caught up in to many things, and i was raised with the "don't speak unless your spoken to" kind of mind so i guess that sorta played a role in it as well. Nevertheless I will still be doing updates, just not as often i suppose (unless its extremely important, obviously).

Now lets talk dreams. They won't be ordered by the date i've had them since i can't really remember when they occurred...but hey, at least i remember the dreams themselves. I'll give a small synopsis of them and spare you the boring not-so-important details. I've been having quite a few of them, sometimes they were lucid or other times they had like a fuzzy static  about them like a bad quality camera that just got dropped. At first i thought that it was just my mind relaying various bits of information that i knew but now these dreams are becoming more often and its starting to worry me. I'm just hoping that all it is is a small case of common paranoia.

Now to the dreams

I was being chased by somebody, i can't remember who or what was chasing me, might have been a proxy. I was in a desert and it was extremely hot but also extremely windy. As i was running i came across a temple with Egyptian architecture. As i weaved through the pillars trying to evade my predator i took notice to the details of it. I saw etchings of a man with a rams head on the side of the temple along side some other things depicting either a ram or a rams head in some way. I first thought it was a trap so i made my ways out of pillars and ran off to the side of the temple, where the dream began to change its form. It changed to where i was running(still being chased) towards a stream with a large pool at the mouth of it. As an attempt to get away i dived head first into the pool, but then i woke up.

You see, i thought this was a really odd dream because i know absolutely NOTHING of Egyptian mythology and whatnot. So the odds of my mind relaying various bits of info was ruled out immediately. Now the day after i did some research and i came across the god named Herishef/Harsaphes/Khnum/Heryshaf and the city(?) named Herakleopolis. At first i just saw it was the god connected to water and fertility. I definitely don't plan on having any kids anytime soon so i thought maybe it was about creativity and having new ideas. But then after seeing Elaines post and looking at posts i ran across during my research from other bloggers, i began realizing maybe it does have something to do with Him after all.

 But i got lost through half of that due to lack of knowledge about Egypt, but at least i have a small grasp of what relation that He has with Heryshaf. Now all i have to figure out is why i had this dream, but then again isn't that a question we would all just love to answer? Sorry if i got any information wrong, like i said, i know nothing about Egypt.

The next dreams I'm just going to type them out as a set because they all have that fuzzy quality to them and i can't tell where they end nor begin >.<

In one dream i was a proxy, i had the whole mask and shady looking dress ware. I think i w as stalking people, when i got a first real assignment. And that was to kill my parents.I remembered that they would die regardless of what i did. I was horrified, i remember i tried to save them. Despite all of my efforts to try to save them they still died. It was a rather odd death, the earth opened up and swallowed them whole. At least it was (hopefully) painless.

The next bit was rather odd. That night i was staying at my aunts house due to a family member being hospitalized and i never really liked sleeping in her living room. Always gave me the creeps, you know? Back to the dream, in my dream i was at my aunts house wandering it. It had like this weird greenish/blue glow to it as i was wandering. The dream half/shifted, like i was in the living room but everything else around me turned into a field with a forest around the edges. I was at the far side of them room watching myself sleep on the sofa when He was there at the edge where my feet where staring at the dream me. I felt an immense amount of fear come over me and i felt paralyzed on the spot. He beckoned me to come closer and in my fear stricken state curiosity gnawed at the edges of my mind. Immobilized my fear but propelled by curiosity i began to inch forward, dying to know why i was beckoned. As i moved forward the dream began to blur and become and static-y like i mentioned earlier. It was like how camera and other technical goodies malfunctioned when he was near. It also began to fade and eventually i was left with darkness and the dream just ends from i suppose.

The next (and last one) was about me being stalked by a proxy. I would pass him in the streets and see him glaring at me from a distance but i never caught a good glimpse of him,until he bumped into me and his hoodie fell back and i saw that my stalker was in fact my brother. I was extremely shocked and i tried to grab his sleeve but he knocked me into the wall(which he has done in real life and it hurts ALOT) and i blacked out. In my dream i woke up on my bed and i heard screaming so i tried to get out of bed but my mother quickly opened the door and told me just to go back to sleep. I have no idea why i did, i must have not had complete control of the dream or else i wouldn't have done so. But when i woke up(in the dream) i smelled smoke and i got out of bed and quickly ran to the door. I saw my brother burning the bodies of the remaining members of the family(who were headless) in the living room. Horrified and not wanting to get caught by him and his partner, i ran out back and what i saw was rather ugly. All of the heads of the family members were in the  garden with stakes through their skulls. Ugh, what a horrible memory >.< i shudder just typing it out. But my brother  caught me despite my efforts of trying to escape and i was forced to join him into proxy hood. It was weird though, i felt at peace once i did. I mean i did feel grief for my family but once i joined him it was like i said a moment ago, peaceful.

Odd little thingss aren't they? I've had other ones but i don't feel like they're worth mentioning. I CAn't remember them to well and they're probably just fabrications of the mind. I still worry though because i've been predicting things lately by dream. I doubt any of those can come true but when i saw prediction i don't mean the whole scenario and whatnot is foretold but small snips of it. For example i had a dream i was swimming in a pool with golden water in a temple with someone whom i never met before. 3 months later i met the exact same person i saw in my dream. You see though the thing is with thins dream prediction thing is, that even if it does come true, it'll be months away and its only one small part. So i can't really dwell on most of these things and when they do come true it's like a huge frustrating slap in face because i didn't see it coming.

Wow i wrote more than what i was expecting to. Sorry if i wasted your time but a little  update is nice every now and then. Pardon the spelling and grammar mistakes, i don't feel like correcting them at the moment.

another small update

Went to an amusement park with my friends and just hanging out. Been getting these massive headaches on occasion. It's like they come in wavess with the pain rising, then goes down slowly..
WEnt homE looked in the mirror found a faint X  on my forehead. dont know how long its been there, dont know where it came from. Looks sort of like ash, been trying to get a good picture of it but its really light and you can barely make it out.  i've noticed it headaches been  more painful since i've noticed the X. 
Brought a friend over for the night to unwind and cath up on things. Been listening to musix to reduce the pain.
On a lighter note my better laptop jhas been repaired so now i can make bigger blog posts (if i feel like it). One will be on my past paranormal experiences just to archive them so i don't forget them. Another will be on dreams, mainly lucid dreaming but dreaming none the less.
On a completely unrelated note my friends pushed me into eating a Mcgangbang. I normally don't eat McDonalds but it was......a rather unique expiernce.          

To lazt to edit this.
See you all later
Stay safe and live happy
denUrenVarg

Venting a small portion of my rage

Dear executor:
I HOPE YOU ROT FROM THE INSIDE OUT AND GET EATEN BY WOLVES.

....well somebody had to say it...

Another quick update

I know i haven't been around much but that's because I'm forced to share the last good laptop with my siblings, seeing how i killed all the better ones. So please pardon my temporary bouts of silence. When the other laptops get repaired i plan on making a post my favorite subject, Dreams. I also might make a post about myself with various blots of information about me.

All is well in the land me. Nothing really new here.I still see your occasion spirits and shadows. I still hear your faint whispers in the night or tapping on the windows. I've grown used to these affairs and found ways to get around it, so they're no big deal. I think my imagination has been going into overdrive, I've began seeing faces in things, like the way tree branches are arranged or in the way gravel looks. It's sort of fun to find the,m in random objects in an weird, odd sort of way....


On a random side note my fruit trees are getting ready to be harvested and so are my gardens. My flower gardens are also approaching full bloom, they're so lovely. Hooray for spring! 


I believe thats about it for now. Goodbye.

a small update

Since dreams are more incomprehensible nowadays and harder to remember i'll be making small updates on whats on my mind or whats happening in life.
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Electronics have begun to take a sudden hatred to me. Most of you have heard about my laptop and my scanner crapping out on me when i got irritated that one day. Now my phone began to join the unruly bunch of electricity, just what i needed.


Been hearing the neighborhood dogs go bats shit crazy at night. They've been more unruly lately, i wonder whats riling them up....


What the shit knocked over my trash cans in front of my house? I only saw a glimpse of it between the cars in my driveway. It looked like it was either hunched over or short, and dressed in brown. I glanced away for a second when it happened but when i looked back it was gone. I looked in the reflection of the cars( which gave a view of the whole street) and i saw nothing.

Tales of a family past

This post isn't about my dreams but about past family tales of their experiences with the  paranormal. I never really took much notice to these stories but now that i think about it a lot of them revolves around my aunt, but that doesn't really matter. Most of them will most likely be vague and short because of my absolutely fantastic memory. Almost all of them happened before my time so i know very little first hand experience about them.


I'm not sure if the stories I've been told are real or not but I don't think my aunt would lie to be about something like this. When my aunt and my father were little they shared a room with a window. This window gave a view to the whole yard, which was full of chicken pens, goats, and other various animals. One night my aunt heard the ear piercing squeals of chickens and the frightened neigh of goats. Curious to see what as making these animals act in such a way, she looked outside the window. According to her, she was absolutely petrified with fear. What she said she saw was a massive dog that looked like a German Shepard of some sort but with evil, demonic looking eyes. The beast was finishing gnawing on a chicken when it split itself into three (according to my aunt). The three monstrosities tore up the poor animals, tearing them apart scattering their remains amongst the back yard. My aunt was mortified, she said she was so shocked that she passed out. When she woke up early that morning she immediately told my father what she saw. He called it BS right away on the spot. The had a typical sibling argument and decided to go out back to go see who was right. If my father was right, there would be no evidence of an animal attack. If my aunt was right then there would be animal remains all over the yard. Well they got to the backyard and guess what, my aunt was right. There was blood and animal entrails all over the yard and claw marks in various places. They were speechless. Of course my grandmother was extreme pissed seeing how their small amount of live stock was killed but thats besides the point. To this day you can see claw marks in certain places like in the sides of trees, walls and fences. They put concrete onto the dirt floor so theres no evidence there, but i'm pretty sure you wouldn't be able to see them anyways without the concrete.


Now lets fast forward a few decades To where my aunt is a mother with 3 young children and a lot of foster children. At the time they were always getting into arguments, screaming, yelling, hating. There was suspicion of paranormal activity going on in the house but hey didn't listen to each other out sibling spite. The foster children would always scream "The kitty cat man!Mommy watch out for the kitty man!" My aunt would always just think it was just an over active imagination, or just an imaginary friend of theirs. Then one day one of my cousins claimed she saw it in her room. She said it looked like a man with a heavily distorted human/animal face with huge claws and covered in blood. You would probably think it would be nightmares from the movie Nightmare on Elm street and the children were just seeing Freddy Krueger. However my aunt wouldn't allow them to see this movie, in fear that the kids would all develop nightmares and become sleepless. We know that he did look like Freddy because one day the foster children came over to my house (because we literally live two houses away but that doesn't matter).The closest experience they've had with this "kitty cat man" was when my cousin was thrown and held against the wall. She was drops eventually but theres was scratches left on her body. After that the whole family was terrified. They began to not take one another's company for granted and they began to tolerate each other after that. They eventually became a happy functional family again and the kitty cat man sitings have ceased after that. However we still see spirits now and then but they're no real threat to us.


The weirdest one of all happened one summer when i was still a baby. One of our family members just died and they sitting there discussing what happened to him in the after life. As they were talking, maggots came up through the carpet and out of the walls. My aunt is a HUGE clean freak, she literally spends 2 and 1/2 hours just on cleaning the floor, and don't get me started on the whole house. After the maggots seeped into the house, they somehow disappeared, leaving no evidence that they were ever there. After that they just all assumed he went to hell or whatever torturous place lies below. 




The end :)