bluh older sibling >:O (and other things)

bluh i unwilling had to let my brother join my blog. Unfortunately for me he's trained in the ancient art of "lets beat the crap out of her until she gives in" type of persuasion and I'm no match against him .Then again if i didn't let him into my blog he would have gotten the rest my family involved and shit would have hit a giant rainbow colored, spiked, metaphorical fan. Plus i just want them to stay safe, who knows what kind of crazy shit could happen to them.

On a side note please ignore the whole ominous looking Big Brother's Watching you deal, he's just trying to make up what he lacks in knowledge with fear. Heh, i might nickname as him my guard dog (or wolf heh) since he's acting like a big fat lazy one with all of this barking but no biting :P I know i'm going to get punched for that later, but at the moment I REGRET NOTHING!!!!

Hehe, i wonder if any other evil doers are using the same technique of replacing knowledge with fear, because that would make a TON of sense from the looks of it:P

I guess now i'm sorta forced to post 'cause with BigBrother giving info on me, someone has to make sure its not false. Or worse, what if he posts baby pictures or tells embarrassing stories of me?!?!!?!?

Great now i have constant blog paranoia., but then again i guess that's the "fun" of having older siblings isn't it?I know he probably means me well but i wish he'd just let me move at my own pace -.- But if i do that then he thinks i'm procrastinating!! Blargh i just can't win can i?
Perhaps he's just trying to help me relieve some stress by getting me to tell everybody everything. 
Blah i will never figure out what goes on in that mind of his....
However it's not like i keep this all to myself or anything, i do have a friend i like to share my dreams and keep up to date with as well so i'm not completely alone in this mess. He of all people should know that i'm not comfortable spilling my guts out to various people who I've never even met(well at least not very well) before! .That's why i tried my best to keep a strictly a Dream Log( speaking of dreams i'll get to those in a sec), however according to him it should be more than that :/. Well lets just see how things work out for now, i think this is a totally pointless idea but that stubborn little man thinks otherwise. 

Ugh, Dreams. You see, my sleeping habits nowadays haven't become to healthy. I stay up late at night playing long endless games of DnD and I've been taking some medication recommended by a good friend of mine that's supposed to help with my allergies but unfortunately it's side effects cause drowsiness. Any medication of any sort with that little effect to help me sleep causes me not to dream or to have really really really bad quality ones . I've heard it's an effect common with everybody so it's probably no big deal and nothing to worry about. Still the small bits and portions that i do see are rather troubling but my friend says it's just a result from playing to much DnD. He(who has name, it's Matt by the way, i hope he doesn't mind me telling you all that..) explained it as my mind relaying bits of info from the day before and that sounds pretty logical to me. There was one thing my brother did mention though that i can't pretend he didn't mention. It was how he noticed how when i flail in my sleep at times, and the only way i know this is because i fell off my bed a few times...Luckily he's only seen me night flailing(lol) a very small amount of times(i think it was 2?i don't know at the moment..) and i was EXTREMELY lucky that it was only a mild case....I know he'll read this and demand more answers and explanations but...it can't really be so important...can it? So what if my body likes  to correlate with my mind during sleep, i can do whatever the hell i want to :P 
since  the issue is related to dreaming i guess i'll have to tell him about it eventually. Which probably means i should talk about other things like the the aftermath of dreaming( like waking up with scratches) before he outs me on that to....But i'd like to do it on my own time at my own pace and through blogger as well, i'm not comfortable with telling him this stuff face to face. I guess this is why they always have the patient facing another direction in a therapists office isn't it?


Well It is getting late and I've just taken another lovely dose of this medicine which means i should be going to bed shortly.
So i guess this is where i sign off then isn't it? 
See you all later, Varg out.

Guess who's watching

Hey everybody, It's Varg's older brother here. I know this somewhat sudden but after stumbling upon her unknown blogger account i had to know what she kept a secret. I mean, I know a girls got her secrets and some privacy that she's like to have respected but C'mon.
She had dreams about ME, and not only dreams but what she described them to be kind of sounded like nightmares...and they're getting pretty frequent to which worries me as well. What also worries me is how she talks about people called "proxies" and talks of some dude called "Slenderman" or "slendy" or "sm" and from what i've read through her blog posts and the wonderful vast ocean of knowledge called the internet, having those baddies in your dreams can only lead to no good. I also think a little family/moral support might actually do her some good. I mean, I'm not saying the rest of you is nothing but chopped liver but still, there's nothing better than good ol' family comfort.Also after reading every post of the blog i don't believe she's being completely honest with all of you, like as in not telling the whole story. Like, how she woke up twice lightly flailing and whimpering. I know it MAY have been possible that she forgotten the dream(or is to stubborn to say what it was)but she could have at least told you all what happened for some comfort or any advice that could have possibly been given(i don't know what the hell kind of advice that would be but what do i know).
So i decided if she's gonna give you slice you might as well have the whole cake.
After all, it's not nice to be a little greedy now is it?

Well its been a while

Hello there, sorry about the small absence. I just got caught up in to many things, and i was raised with the "don't speak unless your spoken to" kind of mind so i guess that sorta played a role in it as well. Nevertheless I will still be doing updates, just not as often i suppose (unless its extremely important, obviously).

Now lets talk dreams. They won't be ordered by the date i've had them since i can't really remember when they occurred...but hey, at least i remember the dreams themselves. I'll give a small synopsis of them and spare you the boring not-so-important details. I've been having quite a few of them, sometimes they were lucid or other times they had like a fuzzy static  about them like a bad quality camera that just got dropped. At first i thought that it was just my mind relaying various bits of information that i knew but now these dreams are becoming more often and its starting to worry me. I'm just hoping that all it is is a small case of common paranoia.

Now to the dreams

I was being chased by somebody, i can't remember who or what was chasing me, might have been a proxy. I was in a desert and it was extremely hot but also extremely windy. As i was running i came across a temple with Egyptian architecture. As i weaved through the pillars trying to evade my predator i took notice to the details of it. I saw etchings of a man with a rams head on the side of the temple along side some other things depicting either a ram or a rams head in some way. I first thought it was a trap so i made my ways out of pillars and ran off to the side of the temple, where the dream began to change its form. It changed to where i was running(still being chased) towards a stream with a large pool at the mouth of it. As an attempt to get away i dived head first into the pool, but then i woke up.

You see, i thought this was a really odd dream because i know absolutely NOTHING of Egyptian mythology and whatnot. So the odds of my mind relaying various bits of info was ruled out immediately. Now the day after i did some research and i came across the god named Herishef/Harsaphes/Khnum/Heryshaf and the city(?) named Herakleopolis. At first i just saw it was the god connected to water and fertility. I definitely don't plan on having any kids anytime soon so i thought maybe it was about creativity and having new ideas. But then after seeing Elaines post and looking at posts i ran across during my research from other bloggers, i began realizing maybe it does have something to do with Him after all.

 But i got lost through half of that due to lack of knowledge about Egypt, but at least i have a small grasp of what relation that He has with Heryshaf. Now all i have to figure out is why i had this dream, but then again isn't that a question we would all just love to answer? Sorry if i got any information wrong, like i said, i know nothing about Egypt.

The next dreams I'm just going to type them out as a set because they all have that fuzzy quality to them and i can't tell where they end nor begin >.<

In one dream i was a proxy, i had the whole mask and shady looking dress ware. I think i w as stalking people, when i got a first real assignment. And that was to kill my parents.I remembered that they would die regardless of what i did. I was horrified, i remember i tried to save them. Despite all of my efforts to try to save them they still died. It was a rather odd death, the earth opened up and swallowed them whole. At least it was (hopefully) painless.

The next bit was rather odd. That night i was staying at my aunts house due to a family member being hospitalized and i never really liked sleeping in her living room. Always gave me the creeps, you know? Back to the dream, in my dream i was at my aunts house wandering it. It had like this weird greenish/blue glow to it as i was wandering. The dream half/shifted, like i was in the living room but everything else around me turned into a field with a forest around the edges. I was at the far side of them room watching myself sleep on the sofa when He was there at the edge where my feet where staring at the dream me. I felt an immense amount of fear come over me and i felt paralyzed on the spot. He beckoned me to come closer and in my fear stricken state curiosity gnawed at the edges of my mind. Immobilized my fear but propelled by curiosity i began to inch forward, dying to know why i was beckoned. As i moved forward the dream began to blur and become and static-y like i mentioned earlier. It was like how camera and other technical goodies malfunctioned when he was near. It also began to fade and eventually i was left with darkness and the dream just ends from i suppose.

The next (and last one) was about me being stalked by a proxy. I would pass him in the streets and see him glaring at me from a distance but i never caught a good glimpse of him,until he bumped into me and his hoodie fell back and i saw that my stalker was in fact my brother. I was extremely shocked and i tried to grab his sleeve but he knocked me into the wall(which he has done in real life and it hurts ALOT) and i blacked out. In my dream i woke up on my bed and i heard screaming so i tried to get out of bed but my mother quickly opened the door and told me just to go back to sleep. I have no idea why i did, i must have not had complete control of the dream or else i wouldn't have done so. But when i woke up(in the dream) i smelled smoke and i got out of bed and quickly ran to the door. I saw my brother burning the bodies of the remaining members of the family(who were headless) in the living room. Horrified and not wanting to get caught by him and his partner, i ran out back and what i saw was rather ugly. All of the heads of the family members were in the  garden with stakes through their skulls. Ugh, what a horrible memory >.< i shudder just typing it out. But my brother  caught me despite my efforts of trying to escape and i was forced to join him into proxy hood. It was weird though, i felt at peace once i did. I mean i did feel grief for my family but once i joined him it was like i said a moment ago, peaceful.

Odd little thingss aren't they? I've had other ones but i don't feel like they're worth mentioning. I CAn't remember them to well and they're probably just fabrications of the mind. I still worry though because i've been predicting things lately by dream. I doubt any of those can come true but when i saw prediction i don't mean the whole scenario and whatnot is foretold but small snips of it. For example i had a dream i was swimming in a pool with golden water in a temple with someone whom i never met before. 3 months later i met the exact same person i saw in my dream. You see though the thing is with thins dream prediction thing is, that even if it does come true, it'll be months away and its only one small part. So i can't really dwell on most of these things and when they do come true it's like a huge frustrating slap in face because i didn't see it coming.

Wow i wrote more than what i was expecting to. Sorry if i wasted your time but a little  update is nice every now and then. Pardon the spelling and grammar mistakes, i don't feel like correcting them at the moment.

another small update

Went to an amusement park with my friends and just hanging out. Been getting these massive headaches on occasion. It's like they come in wavess with the pain rising, then goes down slowly..
WEnt homE looked in the mirror found a faint X  on my forehead. dont know how long its been there, dont know where it came from. Looks sort of like ash, been trying to get a good picture of it but its really light and you can barely make it out.  i've noticed it headaches been  more painful since i've noticed the X. 
Brought a friend over for the night to unwind and cath up on things. Been listening to musix to reduce the pain.
On a lighter note my better laptop jhas been repaired so now i can make bigger blog posts (if i feel like it). One will be on my past paranormal experiences just to archive them so i don't forget them. Another will be on dreams, mainly lucid dreaming but dreaming none the less.
On a completely unrelated note my friends pushed me into eating a Mcgangbang. I normally don't eat McDonalds but it was......a rather unique expiernce.          

To lazt to edit this.
See you all later
Stay safe and live happy
denUrenVarg

Venting a small portion of my rage

Dear executor:
I HOPE YOU ROT FROM THE INSIDE OUT AND GET EATEN BY WOLVES.

....well somebody had to say it...

Another quick update

I know i haven't been around much but that's because I'm forced to share the last good laptop with my siblings, seeing how i killed all the better ones. So please pardon my temporary bouts of silence. When the other laptops get repaired i plan on making a post my favorite subject, Dreams. I also might make a post about myself with various blots of information about me.

All is well in the land me. Nothing really new here.I still see your occasion spirits and shadows. I still hear your faint whispers in the night or tapping on the windows. I've grown used to these affairs and found ways to get around it, so they're no big deal. I think my imagination has been going into overdrive, I've began seeing faces in things, like the way tree branches are arranged or in the way gravel looks. It's sort of fun to find the,m in random objects in an weird, odd sort of way....


On a random side note my fruit trees are getting ready to be harvested and so are my gardens. My flower gardens are also approaching full bloom, they're so lovely. Hooray for spring! 


I believe thats about it for now. Goodbye.

a small update

Since dreams are more incomprehensible nowadays and harder to remember i'll be making small updates on whats on my mind or whats happening in life.
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Electronics have begun to take a sudden hatred to me. Most of you have heard about my laptop and my scanner crapping out on me when i got irritated that one day. Now my phone began to join the unruly bunch of electricity, just what i needed.


Been hearing the neighborhood dogs go bats shit crazy at night. They've been more unruly lately, i wonder whats riling them up....


What the shit knocked over my trash cans in front of my house? I only saw a glimpse of it between the cars in my driveway. It looked like it was either hunched over or short, and dressed in brown. I glanced away for a second when it happened but when i looked back it was gone. I looked in the reflection of the cars( which gave a view of the whole street) and i saw nothing.