Cobwebs everywhere

Man is it me or is this blog growing cobwebs? I swear its like why bother even having it? And is it me or did the orange color change?And why does this font seem so small?!?!!?
but that's beside the point.
Between not giving a fuck about reading most blogs and actually having a damn life, I never actually really had motive to go on here other to help out my sister....And after reading her recent post i can see that she's not fairing to well....

Although i regrettably have to admit she did have a point 2 posts ago trying to leverage fear for knowledge XP, so i guess the tough guy act isn't just me. Still though, if any of you freaks or weirdos even THINK bout harming her i will make you beg for death. But lets try not to stray off topic shall we?

Like i mentioned the only interest i have in this blog is to help her, and i'll do whatever it takes to help. Even if it means "prying" into her personal life (i swear i didn't mean for that to sound as harsh as it did). I just mean that, she's just a kid still (well to me at least) and i want her to enjoy life to the fullest with no worries, no stress, or no troubles! I also am trying my best to understand whats going on, i mean at least i'm attempting to read a blog or two(which reminds me to add more to reading list later..) but i honestly (and no offense) don't give a shit about anyone else. Only her, since she IS family and all. So i'm just an innocent guy trying to help out a....troubled family member. Also since, i kinda moved it's really hard to help her since i'm not really there in person. I know there will be times to visit but i have a really busy work scheduled and i'm trying to plan a wedding which makes me reliant on this magical device called a PHONE and this strange contraption called this.. this....INTERNET.
:P(hehehehehe)
Point being whether she likes it or not, I'm here to help her out. So to start on such, i'm going to be giving updates on her when i can. (which is kind of pathetic since she should do this herself since she knows herself better than i do. i'm just saying)

So i guess i'll start now.
Recently....she hasn't been to well....and judging by the amount of errors in her most recent post, i don't think she's improving. In the time before I left, she always seemed to be taking a nap. Whether it was after school, on the weekends, at the beach, in the car and i just thought it was just your average teenage angst/depression so i never really put much thought into it but i was curious on what she would be depressed about. So i just started to try to get some info out of her on small stuff with a touch of brotherly love, like the typical "Hows school like, chump" and "Hey get that snorlax out of route 11"(brownie points on whoever gets the reference), and the lovely "Why the fuck are you sleeping so much". (Subtlety was never my thing....) The only SOMEWHAT useful reply i got was "...i need to know more" or " I would tell you but you wouldn't understand, since you didn't read those damn blogs like i told you to!".....Well shit. She did get me there..I still fail to understand how the problems of others can be hers as well.
Grrrr.....women...... I guess if i just HAVE to read other blogs then so be it.....
Also, even though it seems like she's always asleep every hour of the day, when she's awake she acts like she hasn't slept in 2 days. You'd think she's storing energy in little bottles or something with all of that sleep. She's also kind of more distant than she used to be, always zoning out into blank spaces with vacant yet concentrating type of look on her face. I swear that girl is a mystery wrapped in an enigma.
The last thing is odd, i don't really know why she does it but she kind of twitches in her sleep. I'm not sure if this is related to the night screaming that she's used to do or not but it seems pretty odd to me. Only because sometimes she twitches when she's awake. Its not really twitching though when she's awake...its more like just really jerky hand motions when she's going to do something, or just moving really quickly after being called to attention after she just zoned out. But it's like she does it when no ones watching (or when she thinks no ones there). Which is pretty odd, because if she can control it then why twitch? And if you're going to control the twitch, then wouldn't it make more sense to do it in front of people for attention?

Well, Varg if you're going to read this post by any chance would it kill ya to give even just a tiiiiiiiiny explanation? or even a hint! Because, with all due respect, you're just confusing as fuck just so ya know -.-'

So i'll take my leave and post some other time. But keep in mind I do have quite a busy life so i may not be able to post soon.
WHICH ALSO MEANS I'M RELYING ON YOU VARG TO POST TO!

Later.

Apologies for the absence

Sorry being gone for a while, been busy with school, life and whotnot....

I haven't being sleeping well lately but i'll elaborate later(ortry to anyways))

I can't make this long, gotta go soon and help my brother move into his new place today, im going to try to pressure him into posting for me ^u^ Aren;t i a wonderful sister?

Anywhos is anyone else having twitter problems?

i cant log into my account >,< (mabey it has something to do with my email account i linked it to, since it got blocked)

Unfortunatelly i'll have to make my leave here, let's hope i dont trip and kill myself in my barely concious sleep deprived state of mind :'D

  btw spell checking's for loozers and  fully awake people :D

WAIT WAIT
before i go, can somebody keep me up to date on whats happening...been to busy being locked up in my own little world to realize whats going on around me...sorry....

bluh older sibling >:O (and other things)

bluh i unwilling had to let my brother join my blog. Unfortunately for me he's trained in the ancient art of "lets beat the crap out of her until she gives in" type of persuasion and I'm no match against him .Then again if i didn't let him into my blog he would have gotten the rest my family involved and shit would have hit a giant rainbow colored, spiked, metaphorical fan. Plus i just want them to stay safe, who knows what kind of crazy shit could happen to them.

On a side note please ignore the whole ominous looking Big Brother's Watching you deal, he's just trying to make up what he lacks in knowledge with fear. Heh, i might nickname as him my guard dog (or wolf heh) since he's acting like a big fat lazy one with all of this barking but no biting :P I know i'm going to get punched for that later, but at the moment I REGRET NOTHING!!!!

Hehe, i wonder if any other evil doers are using the same technique of replacing knowledge with fear, because that would make a TON of sense from the looks of it:P

I guess now i'm sorta forced to post 'cause with BigBrother giving info on me, someone has to make sure its not false. Or worse, what if he posts baby pictures or tells embarrassing stories of me?!?!!?!?

Great now i have constant blog paranoia., but then again i guess that's the "fun" of having older siblings isn't it?I know he probably means me well but i wish he'd just let me move at my own pace -.- But if i do that then he thinks i'm procrastinating!! Blargh i just can't win can i?
Perhaps he's just trying to help me relieve some stress by getting me to tell everybody everything. 
Blah i will never figure out what goes on in that mind of his....
However it's not like i keep this all to myself or anything, i do have a friend i like to share my dreams and keep up to date with as well so i'm not completely alone in this mess. He of all people should know that i'm not comfortable spilling my guts out to various people who I've never even met(well at least not very well) before! .That's why i tried my best to keep a strictly a Dream Log( speaking of dreams i'll get to those in a sec), however according to him it should be more than that :/. Well lets just see how things work out for now, i think this is a totally pointless idea but that stubborn little man thinks otherwise. 

Ugh, Dreams. You see, my sleeping habits nowadays haven't become to healthy. I stay up late at night playing long endless games of DnD and I've been taking some medication recommended by a good friend of mine that's supposed to help with my allergies but unfortunately it's side effects cause drowsiness. Any medication of any sort with that little effect to help me sleep causes me not to dream or to have really really really bad quality ones . I've heard it's an effect common with everybody so it's probably no big deal and nothing to worry about. Still the small bits and portions that i do see are rather troubling but my friend says it's just a result from playing to much DnD. He(who has name, it's Matt by the way, i hope he doesn't mind me telling you all that..) explained it as my mind relaying bits of info from the day before and that sounds pretty logical to me. There was one thing my brother did mention though that i can't pretend he didn't mention. It was how he noticed how when i flail in my sleep at times, and the only way i know this is because i fell off my bed a few times...Luckily he's only seen me night flailing(lol) a very small amount of times(i think it was 2?i don't know at the moment..) and i was EXTREMELY lucky that it was only a mild case....I know he'll read this and demand more answers and explanations but...it can't really be so important...can it? So what if my body likes  to correlate with my mind during sleep, i can do whatever the hell i want to :P 
since  the issue is related to dreaming i guess i'll have to tell him about it eventually. Which probably means i should talk about other things like the the aftermath of dreaming( like waking up with scratches) before he outs me on that to....But i'd like to do it on my own time at my own pace and through blogger as well, i'm not comfortable with telling him this stuff face to face. I guess this is why they always have the patient facing another direction in a therapists office isn't it?


Well It is getting late and I've just taken another lovely dose of this medicine which means i should be going to bed shortly.
So i guess this is where i sign off then isn't it? 
See you all later, Varg out.

Guess who's watching

Hey everybody, It's Varg's older brother here. I know this somewhat sudden but after stumbling upon her unknown blogger account i had to know what she kept a secret. I mean, I know a girls got her secrets and some privacy that she's like to have respected but C'mon.
She had dreams about ME, and not only dreams but what she described them to be kind of sounded like nightmares...and they're getting pretty frequent to which worries me as well. What also worries me is how she talks about people called "proxies" and talks of some dude called "Slenderman" or "slendy" or "sm" and from what i've read through her blog posts and the wonderful vast ocean of knowledge called the internet, having those baddies in your dreams can only lead to no good. I also think a little family/moral support might actually do her some good. I mean, I'm not saying the rest of you is nothing but chopped liver but still, there's nothing better than good ol' family comfort.Also after reading every post of the blog i don't believe she's being completely honest with all of you, like as in not telling the whole story. Like, how she woke up twice lightly flailing and whimpering. I know it MAY have been possible that she forgotten the dream(or is to stubborn to say what it was)but she could have at least told you all what happened for some comfort or any advice that could have possibly been given(i don't know what the hell kind of advice that would be but what do i know).
So i decided if she's gonna give you slice you might as well have the whole cake.
After all, it's not nice to be a little greedy now is it?

Well its been a while

Hello there, sorry about the small absence. I just got caught up in to many things, and i was raised with the "don't speak unless your spoken to" kind of mind so i guess that sorta played a role in it as well. Nevertheless I will still be doing updates, just not as often i suppose (unless its extremely important, obviously).

Now lets talk dreams. They won't be ordered by the date i've had them since i can't really remember when they occurred...but hey, at least i remember the dreams themselves. I'll give a small synopsis of them and spare you the boring not-so-important details. I've been having quite a few of them, sometimes they were lucid or other times they had like a fuzzy static  about them like a bad quality camera that just got dropped. At first i thought that it was just my mind relaying various bits of information that i knew but now these dreams are becoming more often and its starting to worry me. I'm just hoping that all it is is a small case of common paranoia.

Now to the dreams

I was being chased by somebody, i can't remember who or what was chasing me, might have been a proxy. I was in a desert and it was extremely hot but also extremely windy. As i was running i came across a temple with Egyptian architecture. As i weaved through the pillars trying to evade my predator i took notice to the details of it. I saw etchings of a man with a rams head on the side of the temple along side some other things depicting either a ram or a rams head in some way. I first thought it was a trap so i made my ways out of pillars and ran off to the side of the temple, where the dream began to change its form. It changed to where i was running(still being chased) towards a stream with a large pool at the mouth of it. As an attempt to get away i dived head first into the pool, but then i woke up.

You see, i thought this was a really odd dream because i know absolutely NOTHING of Egyptian mythology and whatnot. So the odds of my mind relaying various bits of info was ruled out immediately. Now the day after i did some research and i came across the god named Herishef/Harsaphes/Khnum/Heryshaf and the city(?) named Herakleopolis. At first i just saw it was the god connected to water and fertility. I definitely don't plan on having any kids anytime soon so i thought maybe it was about creativity and having new ideas. But then after seeing Elaines post and looking at posts i ran across during my research from other bloggers, i began realizing maybe it does have something to do with Him after all.

 But i got lost through half of that due to lack of knowledge about Egypt, but at least i have a small grasp of what relation that He has with Heryshaf. Now all i have to figure out is why i had this dream, but then again isn't that a question we would all just love to answer? Sorry if i got any information wrong, like i said, i know nothing about Egypt.

The next dreams I'm just going to type them out as a set because they all have that fuzzy quality to them and i can't tell where they end nor begin >.<

In one dream i was a proxy, i had the whole mask and shady looking dress ware. I think i w as stalking people, when i got a first real assignment. And that was to kill my parents.I remembered that they would die regardless of what i did. I was horrified, i remember i tried to save them. Despite all of my efforts to try to save them they still died. It was a rather odd death, the earth opened up and swallowed them whole. At least it was (hopefully) painless.

The next bit was rather odd. That night i was staying at my aunts house due to a family member being hospitalized and i never really liked sleeping in her living room. Always gave me the creeps, you know? Back to the dream, in my dream i was at my aunts house wandering it. It had like this weird greenish/blue glow to it as i was wandering. The dream half/shifted, like i was in the living room but everything else around me turned into a field with a forest around the edges. I was at the far side of them room watching myself sleep on the sofa when He was there at the edge where my feet where staring at the dream me. I felt an immense amount of fear come over me and i felt paralyzed on the spot. He beckoned me to come closer and in my fear stricken state curiosity gnawed at the edges of my mind. Immobilized my fear but propelled by curiosity i began to inch forward, dying to know why i was beckoned. As i moved forward the dream began to blur and become and static-y like i mentioned earlier. It was like how camera and other technical goodies malfunctioned when he was near. It also began to fade and eventually i was left with darkness and the dream just ends from i suppose.

The next (and last one) was about me being stalked by a proxy. I would pass him in the streets and see him glaring at me from a distance but i never caught a good glimpse of him,until he bumped into me and his hoodie fell back and i saw that my stalker was in fact my brother. I was extremely shocked and i tried to grab his sleeve but he knocked me into the wall(which he has done in real life and it hurts ALOT) and i blacked out. In my dream i woke up on my bed and i heard screaming so i tried to get out of bed but my mother quickly opened the door and told me just to go back to sleep. I have no idea why i did, i must have not had complete control of the dream or else i wouldn't have done so. But when i woke up(in the dream) i smelled smoke and i got out of bed and quickly ran to the door. I saw my brother burning the bodies of the remaining members of the family(who were headless) in the living room. Horrified and not wanting to get caught by him and his partner, i ran out back and what i saw was rather ugly. All of the heads of the family members were in the  garden with stakes through their skulls. Ugh, what a horrible memory >.< i shudder just typing it out. But my brother  caught me despite my efforts of trying to escape and i was forced to join him into proxy hood. It was weird though, i felt at peace once i did. I mean i did feel grief for my family but once i joined him it was like i said a moment ago, peaceful.

Odd little thingss aren't they? I've had other ones but i don't feel like they're worth mentioning. I CAn't remember them to well and they're probably just fabrications of the mind. I still worry though because i've been predicting things lately by dream. I doubt any of those can come true but when i saw prediction i don't mean the whole scenario and whatnot is foretold but small snips of it. For example i had a dream i was swimming in a pool with golden water in a temple with someone whom i never met before. 3 months later i met the exact same person i saw in my dream. You see though the thing is with thins dream prediction thing is, that even if it does come true, it'll be months away and its only one small part. So i can't really dwell on most of these things and when they do come true it's like a huge frustrating slap in face because i didn't see it coming.

Wow i wrote more than what i was expecting to. Sorry if i wasted your time but a little  update is nice every now and then. Pardon the spelling and grammar mistakes, i don't feel like correcting them at the moment.

another small update

Went to an amusement park with my friends and just hanging out. Been getting these massive headaches on occasion. It's like they come in wavess with the pain rising, then goes down slowly..
WEnt homE looked in the mirror found a faint X  on my forehead. dont know how long its been there, dont know where it came from. Looks sort of like ash, been trying to get a good picture of it but its really light and you can barely make it out.  i've noticed it headaches been  more painful since i've noticed the X. 
Brought a friend over for the night to unwind and cath up on things. Been listening to musix to reduce the pain.
On a lighter note my better laptop jhas been repaired so now i can make bigger blog posts (if i feel like it). One will be on my past paranormal experiences just to archive them so i don't forget them. Another will be on dreams, mainly lucid dreaming but dreaming none the less.
On a completely unrelated note my friends pushed me into eating a Mcgangbang. I normally don't eat McDonalds but it was......a rather unique expiernce.          

To lazt to edit this.
See you all later
Stay safe and live happy
denUrenVarg

Venting a small portion of my rage

Dear executor:
I HOPE YOU ROT FROM THE INSIDE OUT AND GET EATEN BY WOLVES.

....well somebody had to say it...